Softly shifting understanding of the deeper
Insight brought by time
Known but not seen in its truth
Richer and appreciated in new light
So much missed in the obliviousness of an unhealed heart
What was unacknowledged surfaces
It shines in bright clarity
Gentle soul tucked away in heavy garments
Sought only to express a greater truth
He called forth instead that which would oppress
Push down and abuse his loyal heart
Seeking to be received with love
He finds lies & corruption masquerading as love
This revelation shakes his foundation
He questions all that he is
All that he thought to be from his youthful delusions
Vows came from an unhealed place in them both
The pain is excruciating
Who was this person he thought he knew
What was this life he thought they had built
So drawn in to the lie
He did not recognize his own unhappiness
The reflection unnoticed
The spark of his gentle being withdrawn
Gone into hiding unable to reconcile this life
He grieves the abuser
The withholder of love, compassion and respect
So long it merged he does not recognize
He is unnourished and without nurturing
Slowly the cloudiness moves away
He begins to see the delusion
For a time that increases the pain
The passing of time
The loss of his dream of what it should have been
So glaring it blinds him
She was not capable of feeding his gentle soul
He did not see himself slowly slip away
His creative force held down by another’s selfishness
He held her in a light that was not hers
Allowed her lies to be unacknowledged
Sacrificed reciprocation of the sacred
Accepted this life as if it were his destiny
The awakening comes slowly upon her betrayals
He moves his energy to receive the truth of it all
It is staggering in its immensity
Friends offer insight of truths long known to them
He listens and contemplates the enormity of it all
Although he sees now what once was hidden
He cannot see that the loving innocence he desired
Is not part of the delusion
Is not naïve or unattainable for him
It sits so far down in his heart now
He has forgotten the essence of its workings
He is afraid to believe he could receive equal to his giving
The universe conspires to show him solidity
There is truth in the innocent dream
The unhealed heart’s failure in choice of partner
Is not failure of the dream
He shakes off the dust of his life
Rekindling the knowing of his soul
Preparing his heart to step out on a limb long forgotten
His fear and insecurities make him hesitate
But they do not control his heart
It is still willing
Still longing for the innocence of true love
His heart moves and stirs and reaches out
She finds him with no intention
She is from and innocent time and place
Her heart now open she sees his scars with compassion
It hurts her to see what he lived without
To see the sparkle she knew in his eyes withdrawn
The sweetness of their youth envelops them both
Ignites new understanding of sacrifices made in the painful journey of life
They are kindred souls
Seeing a deeper part of one another after long absence
There is kindness in this building bond
Layers of confusion and fear and resistance move in and through them
Hearts move forward with no permissions asked
There is no choice but to flow where it takes them
They acknowledge this with trepidation
And continue this new journey of wise innocence
Tatiacha ~ 1-11-11
